Flow Volere

Name: Flow Volere
Species: Mirialan
Sex/Gender: Male
Age: 19
Class/Spec: Jedi Knight, Sentinel (Combat)
Force Alignment: Light
Primary Light Motivations: Peace, love, justice, holds life sacred, charity
Primary Dark Motivations: Peace (involving theft or destruction of incriminating evidence), love (when involving a Jedi), projection, potentially fear or anger though these haven't earned him any dark side points yet has killed a Sith in panic and feels awful about it.

Elevator pitch: Compulsively truthful Jedi (you know all those little polite lies we do? he just can't. He's actually just prone to getting nervous in conversation and running his mouth as a result.) who is less naive than he appears but also has a lot to learn. Questioning certain things about his order but not in danger of defecting.

History:

Flow was more or less born into the order, to a pair of Jedi who proved unable to keep their emotions or base desires at bay. They were promptly separated, and Flow - quickly displaying Force sensitivity - just as promptly taken from his mother for training. He only has vague memories of either of his parents, if that, and isn't sure he's actually pure Mirialan as a result. It doesn't bother him as much as one might think. He was taken at too early an age to care.

He struggled with the Jedi Code, however, the Jedi of his day often taking it far more literally than is feasible. With a brain prone to anxiety and his teachers telling him fear would cloud his path, he soon found himself paradoxically afraid of being afraid, seeing shadows in every nightmare. Ashamed of this perceived failure, he withdrew from interaction with his fellow students, and to this day is intimidated, if only as background noise in his mind, by social interaction.

After training under a master who saw his anxieties as something to bury, Flow was lucky enough to be found by a master who would encourage him to lean into his strengths. Master Carish Degor was an elderly Jedi, and of the wrong discipline - what could a healer teach one so clearly meant for a sentinel's path? But he saw in Flow a potential his former master did not. While Master Carish was a reclusive sort and not prone to being social, and hadn't trained Padawans in a long time, he took young Flow under his wing. Together, they refined Flow's technique, taught him to focus using the beating of his heart as a metronome- taking the physical manifestation of his anxiety and turning it into a source of focus. It was a messy focus, and one that he could not rely on for sustained Force levitation, but with a pair of blades in his hands, served him well enough.

Part of this was because Carish knew he would not live to see Flow's training through, and it was easier to train Flow for lightsaber combat than it was to risk another master undoing the progress they had made together. He certainly had the bent of Force-sensitivity required to be a sage instead. He leans on it constantly, even, as an assistive tool - it is much easier to ignore the nagging doubt that your conversation partner must see the worst in you when you have an extra sense that tells you otherwise. But that would require more training, more refinement of this sensitivity than Carish knew he would live to see. When he passed on peacefully of old age, Flow found himself performing capably as a would-be sentinel, trained further in combat, with enough focus and confidence he made it to his final trials on Tython.

Still, however, whenever someone praises him as a Jedi, Flow struggles to accept it. He feels he has not earned his praise, and is working on goals he hopes will make him feel like he deserves to be called the fine example of knighthood the older Jedi around him seem to think he is.

Between chapters 1 and 2, his Sith friend (now-boyfriend) Oberon Malo confided in him about his parental abuse, and his struggle to be everything that wasn't what they wanted his pain to make him into. They traded main hand sabers, giving the Sith a blade forged for the service of light, and giving Flow a corrupted crystal, which he works to purify to symbolize both his dedication to good and Oberon's healing. During a battle together against pirates on Hoth later, the synergy between them assisted Flow in finally purifying it. Their relationship only deepened as the war began in earnest - a bad idea if there ever was one.

Jedi Knight story-specific:
The end of chapter 2 hit Flow hard. He hides it capably while on the job, but falls apart in private under the strain of knowing he is guilty of things he cannot remember.

Reference images:

An album, mostly containing Flow in distress. Oops.